Probably something worse. My ex-wife developed narcissistic personality disorder after we had been married for 12 years and it all stemmed from a repressed memory of being raped when she was a teenager. It came about after she had a boob job and started becoming really focused on her appearance. It was really sad to watch. She lost everything including our 3 daughters and all of our friends, and got into phsyically abusive relationships. It took her almost 8 years to finally crash. So it's not a term that I throw around lightly but I know it when I see it.
Wow sorry to hear about your prior struggles......